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Sonny
04:45
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Isn't there a saying that you reel in what you cast off?
But I can't tell the difference between the real thing and the sheepdog
I wish I could blame it all on some stupid line I should not have bought
Every now and again
I scaled the big fence by myself for something new
The sky turned blue to hot pink
I did not think about you
I thought about loyalty
It means make money and fuck the rest
Every now and again
I get a heavy feeling in my chest
I hope that you loved me before I was at my best
Sonny
I want to be alone
More than I want to be alone with you
With love that's already gone
Neither of us will find the silver hair
But every now and again
I get a heavy feeling in my chest
I hope that you loved me before I was at my best
Sonny
Tell me you loved me before I was at my best
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Nature's Way
03:26
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Don't let me stop you in your tracks
I just wanna know when you're coming back
Go get the deal, go make your name
Say all the names that you gotta say
It's not like I'm waiting
It's not like I'm sitting here alone
Doing dumb shit on the phone
Trying to kiss you through the screen
Trying to see you and not be seen
It's not like I'm waiting
Completely indifferent
Can't you tell the difference?
And if I was waiting
It would be cause
A girl's used to fading herself out
I've got a funny thing about
Saying what I want aloud
You push it so far down below
It's here with its hands around my throat
It's not like I'm waiting
I'm fading
Most people say it's nature's way
That I give and that you take
What will it be, My Love, today?
It's getting hard for me to say
Cause if I want
You baby
You can't just watch
As I'm fading myself out
As I'm fading myself out
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3. |
High Tide for One
04:14
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There's drilling in the morning
There's dirt that drags across my doorway
It's been thirty days since you saw me
And I'm always longing for some company at this hour
Last night I saw that man on TV
His tears tasted like silver bullet and supremacy
But the woman wasn't screaming
She remembers the same night only differently
And I don't wanna talk to you
Even if you get time to
I just don't need more work to do
It's no help being sorry
Sister, I can see two of you
You see a little light in me, do you wanna keep me down?
And then to the ones above you
You hold up all your shiny things and you beg to stick around
And tomorrow’s hero comes to pass
You come around to kiss my ass but
I don't need more work to do
You don't even seem sorry
High tide for one isn't solid ground
So why would I want to keep her down?
High tide for one isn't solid ground
So why would I want to keep her?
There's drilling in the morning
There's dirt that drags across my doorway
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All Is Fine
03:26
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A silver moon in the bedroom
A dresser drawer, the envelope
A truth held in a tomb
A message that would just be met across the avenue
With seven or eleven beers
If it found its way to you
My heart it is wide open and I'm looking at my shoes
Just praying that we never have to be in the same room
Would you sing the song you wrote for me?
What would you ever do?
Just find another pretty girl to harmonize with you
All is fine
Sometimes I even keep what's mine so
Take your time, I'm already gone
They say she dodged a bullet, but it put her in the ground
Now she can feel everything and live in every sound
In the night he's wide awake, he feels her all around
It hurts to hear her laughing, she's at peace with what she's found
All is fine
Sometimes I even keep what's mine so
Take your time, I'm already gone
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5. |
The Middle
02:51
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I refuse
To try and hang onto you
I accidentally do, you shine right back
And you said you didn't want me near
Just before you made it clear that you were
Holding on, carry on
Don't be long
Looks like you rolled into that new city while I'm dreaming
But would you walk into the middle if I needed it?
I would give it all to you
Don't you let me do it
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Close to the Vest
03:30
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A wider view could make it easier for you
To perform at your best
You've got nothing to do
No one to report to except the weight in your chest
And I thank you for reminding me to
Play close to the vest
It feels good to lay on the ground
Cause I muffled the sound of me knowing best
I want to pass the night with no noise and no light
And get dirt on my dress
Because when the sun hits my skin
I'll have won
Even if I don't pass every test
I owe you a big thank you for reminding me to
Play close to the vest
You're egging me on
Just to move me along
Just to get my head below your chest
Thank you
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7. |
Song for Sid
04:09
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I sell clothes to the elite
They love to buy things they can't keep
When I'm off I play quietly
At night when I'm too tired to sleep
The mind is cruel to the body
Broken vessel at men's feet
The mind's so tired the mind's a beast
And I can't afford that yellow dress
That you bought in front of me
But if I make the Bootleg
I'm in the door for free
Has she shaken hands with a late night host?
Has she done enough if she's not thin like a ghost?
If she's so stuck on making you see?
As if that would achieve anything
No I can't afford to let her be
And you say you don't need me
But I know Kyle, he'll give a smile and let me drink for free
Oh all the things that we take
Say you love me like the money you make
Hannah's new songs put me back at ease
I'm sinking into the leather with ease
I know I'll get there like a thief
With selfish eyes and scraped up knees
No I can't afford to rid this dream
A shame my life won't see
You're on stage in yellow
But I got in for free
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Julie
03:08
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You’re hard on me, Julie
But the touch of your hand
Is all that I long for and misunderstand
Upon me unduly
For mine are like sand
You’re hard on me, Julie
Would you help me to stand?
You're like a spirited seabird
Who won't tell me the crime
Of which I am guilty
So in the meantime
I'll sit in the hallway
I'll be drawing the lines
Of a well-traveled jailbird
With a mouth just like mine
I can remember the first time
I could see that you were trying
To distinguish the lying
From what was inside
Was it worth your time?
Cause I recorded myself crying
You weren't buying it
So neither did I
You're breaking me, Julie
I do the best that I can
But you always find something
That you must reprimand
And all the love I've got truly
Is all the love I can stand
You're breaking me, Julie
Would you help me to stand?
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Less of You
04:23
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I looked in on a friend today
She hadn't been herself but she seemed good today
She's filling up her skin an uninhibited grin
I got so worried when she couldn't find her way
She let some guys take her out
And they tried to hold her close, but she is not about
To let their words turn to dust
She knows the world isn't just
She says, "Send them home. Keep yourself safe."
And I rarely think about you
And when I do
I couldn't think less of you
She never used to know what she liked
It gets easier to get in touch at night
With knowing when you're done
Not to exist for someone
You can spend a lifetime just making that alright
And I rarely think about you
And when I do
I couldn't think less
Why'd you have to go and leave your shit?
Kept her small and she'll just have to handle it
Oh to be a man
Since you're always thinking of you
I don't have to
And while I wish you all the best
I could do with so much less
No I couldn't think less of you
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Cathy
03:46
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I forget why I was driving on the west side
Sharon told me to pull over
I said I did, but I lied
The last time we had spoken, Cathy
You'd turned your heart around
It's for none of us to say
If it was your time
But I remember more than rocks
More than paper cups and med lines
You had a way of showing me, Cathy
The beauty on the ground
And I can't claim to know
How we should dispose of what you could not show
I hate to feel you linger
Cause you are free to go
Where do we go?
I thought you said
Rocks get smooth from water flow
It's so funny how the days will just pass by
How I can heal enough to love
And something gorgeous had to die
And I so want to call you, Cathy
To tell you all about it
But now I'm supposed to know
How to keep my heart wide open while I let you go
Keep stones between my fingers
That way you don't have to linger
Cause I can feel you linger
But you are free
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Johanna Samuels Los Angeles, California
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